It's become clear to me how lost I am in my own life....working as an event staffer on the weekend, pulling together a crafty business during the week, budgeting every penny, chasing after my 2 year old, being a dedicated wife by cooking dinner every night and keeping up with household chores...I have somehow forgotten what I am suppose to be doing for myself....and I am sure that I am not the only one out there that does this to themselves....
Its like driving a car and suddenly looking around and having no idea where you are, what you are doing doing, or even where you are going! Dangerous...and frightening....
I feel like that old sets of Christmas lights that have been in the garage for 5 years that you would rather throw out then attempt to untangle....
Saturday night after my toddler was put to bed (early for that matter due to an unreasonable amount of tantrums...) I decided to pop in the latest DVD that came in from Netflix....'Julie & Julia'....my hubby was out for the night practicing with his band, Bastard Fish, and I knew he would have no interest in watching a chick flick so I poured myself a GIANT glass of wine and sat down with a cozy blanket to enjoy this movie that I had long awaited to see....
I love to cook and bake but didn't know much about Julia Child other than the impressions I got off her PBS re-runs....which were interesting and informative....but this movie gave great insight into her life and that of Julie Powell (someone we can all relate to)...
'Julie & Julia' really opened my eyes and honestly changed my life...I felt so moved by how Julia overcame criticism & rejection....and how Julie worked hard to complete her task and renew her dream of becoming a writer while doing something she loved, cooking....I really felt Julie's frustration at never finishing anything.....but now I understand that it takes perseverance and dedication...this is something I've always know but never fully understood until I saw it in this movie and put myself in her shoes....odd as it is *shrugs*
So I will be compiling a list of things to accomplish....for me....because I deserve it :)
